Hopefully, it will give a little insight into Mormonism's insidiousness. Bet as Joanna has said there are some things you should think carefully about в and this needs to be done with your head, not your heart.
The misogyny is deep in the Mormon church. Communicate and get those answers, OP. When I come home, I don't necessarily want to be alone, I just need to do things that will calm or recharge me instead of things that will tire me out more.