I seriously could have been the one to write most of that about my situation. What she taught is different from what the essays admit happened.
Subliminal pussy just wanted to let SN and AD know that, if you decide to choose this path, you are not alone. Nothing fixed that issue in me as fast as being almost inseparably bound to a woman that pushed back and kicked screaming against the pricks every time I wanted to make some sort of spiritual effort.
She didn't tell anyone because her own lack self worth and shame petrified her to do anything about it.